really really

base gallery. ex asked me why i was going thru cabinets. said i shouldnt. talked. nothing really new came out of this, of course. grammars. c&d. dance dance dance.

- unknown amount of PBR
- some amount of wine
- some amount of vodka

- blacked out

- woke up on the couch

tim fite

i did nothing except drink in my PJs with friends, until nst. where we saw tim fite play. and i sat on laps acted a fool.

- 6 PBRs
- some amount of vodka
- unknown amount of wine

- flashes of recognition

- woke up at 11am thinking it was 8am...

busy busy

dog park/soccer/hockey. my body hurts.

- some amount of wine
- 4 PBRs
- some more wine
- coffee/jameson

- did not black out

- woke up early and feeling fantastic

fat tuesday @ cubby's

we had an amazing dinner. and drank a lot of wine. and then i was up until 530am on the phone with andria (who is in miami). we laughed and i drank until i couldnt see.

- unknown amount of wine
- 2 vodka/soda

- blacked out

- woke up to my alarm that i set for my hair appt!

soupruary

corrie made soup. we drank. we laughed. i couldn't get to sleep until 4am. i woke up at 7am... forced myself back to sleep with xanax.

- unknown amount of wine

- flashes of recognition

- tossed/turned and woke up tangled in my blankets

but i'm fractured from the fall.

i spent yesterday with friends in the AM. then family in the PM. then friends late night. then still ended up confused at the end of the night, drinking wine and 'whining' to stephen. srsly confused about why i felt the way i did. dumbtown.

- 1 new castle
- 1 stella
- unknown amount of wine

- flashes of recognition to the mighty boosh

- woke up still wondering what is wrong with me...

PAJAMA

pajama party at adams. i braided evey and ashleys hair. i swung a giant sword at some point. i fell asleep on the couch and ashley removed my glasses for me. but she totally failed to see that i had a giant jar of wine in my hands. i woke up soaked in wine this morning. holler.

- unknown amount of wine

- flashes of recognition

- woke up drenched and smelling like a winery on a couch at adams

rly rly.

house party at andrias. played records. drank too much. kyle, michele, emily and i got back to kyles at 530am. i think. i was up until 7am. i think.

- 2 bottles of wine
- drunk from bottles of wild turkey and jack daniels (at one point i had one in each hand)
- who knows wtf else

- blacked out, but then came to around the time we left andrias

- woke up on the floor at kyles. he made french toast for everyone. i refused to eat it. end.

zomg. wtf happened? soup was amazingtown at corries. 3 ppl drank an entire box of wine... oh, and then we got sushi and drank sake. oh and then josh washed some glasses and we drank red wine.

- unknown amount of wine
- 1 vase of sake

- blacked out x10

- woke up on corries floor confused as fuck

aqua idiots:

table of 9. $7 beer is not right. 1/2 price sushi is. win.

- 1 sapporo
- 1 flask of jameson
- 1 vodka/oj
- maybe 6 glasses of wine?

- did not black out

- fell asleep watching planet earth and woke up to some bible tv show...

have i been drinking that much?

maybe? tough to answer. the weekend was blackout central. monday and tuesday? didn't even drink that much. and i was very surprised by the lack of shakes/cold sweats. interesting.

however, last night:

- unknown amount vodka/oj
(which in turn, made me from going to sick to slightly better)

- flashes of recognition

- went to sleep holding a body pillow/woke up holding a body pillow... strange.

long evening:

bennett and i ran around to three different restaurants last evening:
we had drinks at molly malones, drank a bottle of red wine at bella luna and then food at terrys turf. after dinner, we picked up charlie and came back here to watch slumdog. i fell asleep of course.

- 1 stella
- 1/2 bottle of red wine
- unknown amount of vodka

- did not blackout

- woke up smiling due to the sunshine outside my window.

i need to stop drinking liter glasses of oj/vodka... i spilled it all over my bed last night.

- massive amount of oj/vodka

- blacked out

- woke up covered in that gd drink

mac + cheese monday

- liters of oj/vodka
- unknown amount of vodka

- blacked out

- again, awoke at some point with my glasses half on.

"im going to come stay a few days there and collect myself. and by collect myself, i mean drink."

i spent a long time talking about running a farm with someone last night. and then i spilled wine all over my floor.

- unknown amount of wine

- flashes of recognition

- woke up in bed w/my glasses on and one lens missing. ha.

stop triffling. i parlay.

like srsly? wtf. i don't even know what to say. there are only a few things that i know:

i said the word 'parlay' about a thousand times. totally the word of the night.
soupruary at corries was so awesome. amazing food.
dmf was stupidfest 2009. which wtf ever to all of that.
i spit on your grave, Feb 7th.

- unknown amount of wine
- unknown amount of pbr
- shots of vodka

- flashes of recognition. then blacked out at the end of the night (i tried and tried. and failed until the very end).

- woke up to my alarm that someone made me set for 730am.

important sidenote: i had taken off corrie's necklace for the first time in 4 months on friday. i had a gun pulled on me friday evening and then a ridic night on saturday. i put it back on today, in hopes that the weekend was this stupid due to me not wearing it.

i felt like i was in a movie...

so we had ppl over last night and then moved everything to grammars. this is where i ran into someone i havent seen in 5 years.

he decided to push me into the bar and walk 10ft away from me. i walked over and asked what the hell was going on and that he should let all this hate go. i mean, its been forever. so then, he flashes his handgun at me. srsly. i laughed and said 'fucking shoot me. do it.' a few times.

he was going bananas in his mind, and for a moment i was wondering if i was going to be shot at grammars by some fuck. but then he ninja kicked me in the chest and ran out of the bar!

so i bounced back up, shook it off, talked to the boys behind the bar and drank some more.

oh. and you're no longer welcome at grammars, bitch.

- unknown amount of oj/vodka
- some amount of pbr

- blacked out

- woke up laughing about last night and feeling fantastic.

a week has passed:

and i no longer have a job. how about that? am i upset? not really. enjoying my time off before i start looking for a job. drinking? yes. being responsible? not at all. getting awesome? absolutely.

- i have drank a lot this week, yes.

- i haven't blacked out that often (as far as i remember).

- i've been sleeping in my bed; waking up happy.